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Be best version myself. How ordinary people become extraordinary

Published with permission from WALDSCHMIDT PARTNERS INTL.


Legal support of the publishing house is provided by law firm Vegas Lex.


© Daniel E. Waldschmidt, 2014

© Translation into Russian, edition in Russian, design. OOO "Mann, Ivanov and Ferber", 2015

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At the beginning of the book, the opinions and reviews of readers who liked it are usually given. But, in fact, what do you care about other people's opinions?

Read the book and draw your own conclusions.

How it all started

I still remember the taste of cold oiled metal on my tongue.

At 25, I was about to die. I just wanted to get rid of the pain. That afternoon, I sat on the steps of the garage with the muzzle of a gun in my mouth, in a drunken stupor, with a feeling of bitter, murderous hopelessness.

I had everything you could wish for. But I ruined everything...

I always wanted to be extraordinary, amazing, eccentric. I wanted to change the world and, no doubt, I have already achieved a lot.

By the age of twenty-two, I was known in Washington business circles as the Wunderkind, head of a growing company that was expanding rapidly on both sides of the East Coast, doing business around the world. I had a wonderful wife, a wonderful son, and a house too big for the three of us. And for those who did not try to look behind the screen of luxurious costumes and carefree chatter, it seemed that everything was in order with me. However, inside I was full of guilt and disbelief in own forces. I'm tired.

Despite my passion for extreme sports and my tendency to work my heart out—I often spent days at work—I lost the ability to bend the world to my will. My marriage has been shattered. Into a million little pieces. And I keenly felt how the fragments of this catastrophe had stuck into my being.

I did not pay attention to my wife, so another man appeared next to her. For a while I pretended that I did not notice anything and that I was indifferent to what was happening. But the feeling that someone has taken your place corrodes the soul. It drove me crazy. I blamed my wife. Cursed her. Tried to get out of my life. So what if I didn't have time for it?

But somewhere deep down, I clearly understood that my selfish behavior and inability to show love spoiled our beautiful relationship. I couldn't pretend anymore that this drama wasn't tearing my heart apart.

Not that I was the first time to lose something. I had failed many times before, but I generally viewed them as another stepping stone to success. And I always considered success something inevitable. It looks like it was.

Only this time I failed. family life. And it seemed like nothing could be done.

I was going crazy because I couldn't change anything on my own. I have always managed to solve any problems and tasks ahead of others thanks to unbridled, purposeful, superhuman enthusiasm. But it was beyond my power to do anything in this situation. I couldn't get my wife to believe me. Or love me.

And it caused unimaginable pain.

Although from the outside, everything certainly looked different.

Yes, I did not want to lose my wife - but not for any reasonable reasons. I couldn't afford any loss. Never! Never! So I changed my behavior for a few months - just enough to show that I am an exemplary family man. I followed all the formalities: I began to spend more time with my wife, took her to expensive restaurants, arranged fabulous shopping tours. I expected that three months of exemplary behavior would win me back her love and respect. I even told her about it. But this only further alienated her.

So I hit what was best for me - the extreme. Worked longer. He swore louder. Trained harder. I spent every minute without sleep trying to calm the pain.

Day after day, I closed my office door behind me and sobbed over my desk. My assistant knocked politely, reminding me of meetings. I washed my face, straightened my tie, and went off to make incredible deals. But inside I was depressed and emotionally broken. This meant that more effort had to be put in. Which is what I did.

I pushed myself to the point of exhaustion, and even more. At some point in a couple of days, I even lost nine kilograms; and during merciless training in the gym, he caught a staph infection. And at first the doctors could not find it.

I spent four days in the intensive care unit of the hospital. They took infectious disease specialists to me, they did a blood test for AIDS and other autoimmune diseases. Everything was clean. Doctors could not understand what was the matter, and saw one way out - to try different antibiotics. If one did not help, they appointed another. Then another. And so again and again. In the end, I went on the mend.

But my body was broken. I was weak and out of shape. Everything I worked so hard for is gone. And this caused me even more suffering.

I have always believed that I can overcome any difficulties, and I have always put in enough effort to overcome them. But now, for the first time in my life, I was physically unable to do so. Not only did I let my family down, I let myself down. The only friend I had (myself) left me. And I couldn't shake the feeling of loneliness. I was consumed by my failure. Terrible thoughts swirled in my head.

This time I was defeated. It's time to exit the game.

If the staph infection didn't kill me, now I wanted to do it myself. That's how I ended up in the middle of the garage, drunk as hell, with a glass of whiskey in one hand and a gun in the other.

Tears rolled down his face. My sadness turned into sobs. It was so deep and caused so much pain that I was ready to die. There was no other way out. I longed for death. Wiping away my tears, I grabbed the box of bullets. As if in a fog (after all, I'll have to do the job myself), I diligently shoved bullet after bullet into my .22 Browning until I had a full clip.

I took another sip of whiskey and staggered to the back porch of the garage. Sitting down, I awkwardly, with a crash, knocked the glass on the step. But he survived. For a few seconds this observation distracted my attention from my sad thoughts. But they immediately rolled again.

I picked up the gun and held it up to my head. I was curious, which would be better - put the gun to the temple or to the mouth? Can I at least not screw up in this? I decided that a shot in the mouth would be safer.

I was completely serious when I tasted gun oil on my tongue. Partly I was wondering if I would dare to do it, and partly I wanted to get it over with as soon as possible. I'm tired of suffering.

The pain will go away soon. I nodded, as if confirming to myself that I was doing everything right.

He put his finger on the trigger and began to press ...

You don't need other success books

You don't need books on success. Is it true. You already know everything you need to know: set goals, work hard, don't back down or give up until you get what you want. You can repeat it even in your sleep.

I know something about this!

I know how to be successful. I was expelled from the university twice. And in theory, I should not have earned a cent, but I have earned many millions of dollars. (And lost many millions.)

As an executive, I have managed significant sales growth for ten years. How a consultant taught companies around the world to do the same.

I became the head of the company at the age of twenty-five. But I'm not an entrepreneur, I just got into the business world and worked my way up.

I know how to break the rules and be a superstar, not just in business but in life. But I'm unremarkable. I'm just a normal guy who's done some pretty weird stuff and been wildly successful.

However, this book does not give the usual goofy advice on how to succeed. It talks about the "baggage" in your head that keeps leading you to failure. I know enough about this.

There are hundreds, if not thousands, of books on success and high performance. But they lack practical, if painful, discussions of the emotional issues associated with success. They do not pay attention not only to actions, but also to states. And this is a huge omission of the authors, because your actions will not lead to success until you deal with the deeply personal problems in your life that make you behave this way.

In fact, success is not a series of actions, but a state of being.

Success is not what you do, but what you are.

Published with permission from WALDSCHMIDT PARTNERS INTL.


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No part of this book may be reproduced in any form without the written permission of the copyright holders.


© Daniel E. Waldschmidt, 2014

© Translation into Russian, edition in Russian, design. LLC "Mann, Ivanov and Ferber", 2019

* * *

At the beginning of the book, the opinions and reviews of readers who liked it are usually given. But, in fact, what do you care about other people's opinions?

Read the book and draw your own conclusions.

Prologue. How it all started

I still remember the taste of cold oiled metal on my tongue.


At 25, I was about to die. I just wanted to get rid of the pain. That afternoon, I sat on the steps of the garage with the muzzle of a gun in my mouth, in a drunken stupor, with a feeling of bitter, murderous hopelessness.

I had everything you could wish for. But I ruined everything...



I always wanted to be extraordinary, amazing, eccentric. I wanted to change the world and, no doubt, I have already achieved a lot.

By the age of twenty-two, I was known in Washington business circles as the Wunderkind, head of a growing company that was expanding rapidly on both sides of the East Coast, doing business around the world. I had a wonderful wife, a wonderful son, and a house too big for the three of us. And for those who did not try to look behind the screen of luxurious costumes and carefree chatter, it seemed that everything was in order with me. However, inside I was full of guilt and disbelief in my own strength. I'm tired.

Despite my passion for extreme sports and my tendency to work my heart out—I often spent days at work—I lost the ability to bend the world to my will. My marriage has been shattered. Into a million little pieces. And I keenly felt how the fragments of this catastrophe had stuck into my being.

I did not pay attention to my wife, so another man appeared next to her. For a while I pretended that I did not notice anything and that I was indifferent to what was happening. But the feeling that someone has taken your place corrodes the soul. It drove me crazy. I blamed my wife. Cursed her. Tried to get out of my life. So what if I didn't have time for it?

But somewhere deep down, I clearly understood that my selfish behavior and inability to show love spoiled our beautiful relationship. I couldn't pretend anymore that this drama wasn't tearing my heart apart.

Not that I was the first time to lose something. I had failed many times before, but I generally viewed them as another stepping stone to success.

And I always considered success something inevitable. It looks like it was.

Only this time, failure befell me in family life. And it seemed like nothing could be done.

I was going crazy because I couldn't change anything on my own. I have always managed to solve any problems and tasks ahead of others thanks to unbridled, purposeful, superhuman enthusiasm. But it was beyond my power to do anything in this situation. I couldn't get my wife to believe me. Or love me.

And it caused unimaginable pain.

Although from the outside, everything certainly looked different.

Yes, I did not want to lose my wife - but not for any reasonable reasons. I couldn't afford any loss. Never! Never! So I changed my behavior for a few months - just enough to show that I am an exemplary family man. I followed all the formalities: I began to spend more time with my wife, took her to expensive restaurants, arranged fabulous shopping tours. I expected that three months of exemplary behavior would win me back her love and respect. I even told her about it. But this only further alienated her.

So I hit what was best for me - the extreme. Worked longer. He swore louder. Trained harder. I spent every minute without sleep trying to calm the pain.

Day after day, I closed my office door behind me and sobbed over my desk. My assistant knocked politely, reminding me of meetings. I washed my face, straightened my tie, and went off to make incredible deals. But inside I was depressed and emotionally broken. This meant that more effort had to be put in. Which is what I did.

I pushed myself to the point of exhaustion, and even more. At some point in a couple of days, I even lost nine kilograms; and during merciless training in the gym, he caught a staph infection. And at first the doctors could not find it.

I spent four days in the intensive care unit of the hospital. They took infectious disease specialists to me, they did a blood test for AIDS and other autoimmune diseases. Everything was clean. Doctors could not understand what was the matter, and saw one way out - to try different antibiotics. If one did not help, they appointed another. Then another. And so again and again. In the end, I went on the mend.

But my body was broken. I was weak and out of shape. Everything I worked so hard for is gone. And this caused me even more suffering.

I have always believed that I can overcome any difficulties, and I have always put in enough effort to overcome them. But now, for the first time in my life, I was physically unable to do so. Not only did I let my family down, I let myself down. The only friend I had (myself) left me. And I couldn't shake the feeling of loneliness. I was consumed by my failure. Terrible thoughts swirled in my head.

This time I was defeated. It's time to exit the game.

If the staph infection didn't kill me, now I wanted to do it myself. That's how I ended up in the middle of the garage, drunk as hell, with a glass of whiskey in one hand and a gun in the other.

Tears rolled down his face. My sadness turned into sobs. It was so deep and caused so much pain that I was ready to die. There was no other way out. I longed for death. Wiping away my tears, I grabbed the box of bullets. As if in a fog (after all, I'll have to do the job myself), I diligently shoved bullet after bullet into my .22 Browning until I had a full clip.

I took another sip of whiskey and staggered to the back porch of the garage. Sitting down, I awkwardly, with a crash, knocked the glass on the step. But he survived. For a few seconds this observation distracted my attention from my sad thoughts. But they immediately rolled again.

I picked up the gun and held it up to my head. I was curious, which would be better - put the gun to the temple or to the mouth? Can I at least not screw up in this? I decided that a shot in the mouth would be safer.

I was completely serious when I tasted gun oil on my tongue. Partly I was wondering if I would dare to do it, and partly I wanted to get it over with as soon as possible. I'm tired of suffering.

The pain will go away soon. I nodded, as if confirming to myself that I was doing everything right.

He put his finger on the trigger and began to press ...

You don't need other success books

You don't need books on success. Is it true. You already know everything you need to know: set goals, work hard, don't back down or give up until you get what you want. You can repeat it even in your sleep.

I know something about this!

I know how to be successful. I was expelled from the university twice. And in theory, I should not have earned a cent, but I have earned many millions of dollars. (And lost many millions.)

As an executive, I have managed significant sales growth for ten years. How a consultant taught companies around the world to do the same.

I became the head of the company at the age of twenty-five. But I'm not an entrepreneur, I just got into the business world and worked my way up.

I know how to break the rules and be a superstar, not just in business but in life. But I'm unremarkable. I'm just a normal guy who's done some pretty weird stuff and been wildly successful.

However, this book does not give the usual goofy advice on how to succeed. It tells about

"baggage" in your head that keeps leading you to failure. I know enough about this.

There are hundreds, if not thousands, of books on success and high performance. But they lack practical, if painful, discussions of the emotional issues associated with success. They do not pay attention not only to actions, but also to states. And this is a huge omission of the authors, because your actions will not lead to success until you deal with the deeply personal problems in your life that make you behave this way.

In fact, success is not a series of actions, but a state of being.

Success is not what you do, but what you are.

Everything that you strive to achieve, all your goals, dreams and desires, is the creation of your inner essence, not actions. Therefore, we will not talk about how to succeed, but about how to be successful.

This book is not one that suggests you follow a series of steps to make millions of dollars. She is about something else. (Although it is possible that this will lead you to exactly this result.)

This book is about important truths that are not spoken about and that you will not find in typical success literature. This is a behind-the-scenes look at pain, fear, love (yes, love) and other important feelings that depend on huge success, whatever your path to it.

This book is about who you are, why you are not where you want to be, and how to fill your life with incredible possibilities.

This book will take you back to what really works. It's about how an ordinary person like you and me can become extraordinary, whether they're running a company, closing deals, or training for the Olympics.

What you read in it will change the rest of your life. You will exceed your expectations. Set yourself unimaginable goals. Become happier. And get an incredible amount of pleasure from it. Undoubtedly!

I purposely made the book very short. I have nothing to write about, because the true essence of high performance is extremely simple. In fact, all of it can be fit in one word -

But perhaps that would be too short.

“Being” the best version of yourself is a very inspiring idea. There is something deeply satisfying about making the most of your potential.

Only you know your true potential.

But I'll tell you what, it's much more than you can imagine.

And here's the question you need to ask yourself: Who am I? Who do I want to become and why do I need it?

Take your time. Think it over carefully. This question goes deeper than it seems.

Unfortunately, I came to the answer to it the hard way. But at the same time, I learned something. Because it can't be faked. What you need to feel, live. Which should cover you completely. This is what will make you successful.

What I'm talking about? What is this state?

It's an obsession. That decisiveness and firmness of character, which ultimately determines success.

The fact is that you cannot avoid difficulties in the future. They will inevitably arise. Life will shake you up. You will receive an uppercut to the chin and fall to the floor. And most likely, this will happen at the most unexpected moment, when your hands will be lowered and you will not be able to stand firmly on your feet.

That's why everything you have done in the past and will do in the future is irrelevant! At that moment, when you are lying in the ring, covered in blood, only the strength of your spirit matters. What is inside of you plays a decisive role.

Unbridled courage is what will lift you off the floor.

There is no magic formula or special seven-step super plan for such a case. Only a mad obsession with one thought - to rise. And the more effort you put in to get back on your feet, the faster you recover, the sooner you stumble to the finish line, which is called success.

This takes courage.

Not brains. Not muscles -

but resilience.

Because success lies not in the amount of knowledge, but in the strength of the spirit. It's not a list you can download from the internet, it's not a blog post you can tweet, it's not a business strategy you can copy from a business bestseller.

You must be more persistent. You must desperately want more. You must be more careful.

In fact, you already know what to do. In any case, it's not that important. It is more important to know what you will do with it? Who do you decide to become?

Let's talk about it.

Stop looking for excuses

What matters is what you do. Whatever it is. Small things. Large. Even embarrassing mistakes.

It is important that you are wasting your time. Blame others for your failures. Be lazy sometimes. This is important because you want to achieve your goals. And on the way to them there is no room for excuses. This path has been passed by each of the great people who have achieved success in life.

Sigmund Freud booed on stage when he first presented his theories to a group of scientists in Europe. He continued to work and was awarded the Goethe Prize for his work in the field of psychology.

Winston Churchill, one of the greatest political leaders of the 20th century, became prime minister at the age of 65, although he lost the election. The King appointed him to the post when the previous prime minister received a vote of no confidence.

Albert Einstein did not speak until the age of four, could not read until the age of seven simple words and was later expelled from school. Subsequently, his theory of relativity revolutionized physics.

Henry Ford failed to succeed as a farmer, failed as an apprentice or mechanic, and went bankrupt four times. Nevertheless, he perfected mass production.

Stan Smith they didn't hire a boy picking up balls because of clumsiness. Smith has won the Davis Cup 8 times and is considered one of the best tennis doubles players of all time.

Charles Schultz was refused permission to publish all of his cartoons published in the school's annual magazine. Schultz was not taken to the Walt Disney Company. But he created the most popular comic book series, Peanuts.

Vincent van Gogh in his entire life he sold only one painting - to his friend's sister for about 50 dollars. He has painted over 800 masterpieces, seven of which are worth $1 billion in total.

Lev Tolstoy was expelled from law school for poor academic performance. The teachers considered him "incapable of learning". But he became one of the world's greatest novelists (think War and Peace).

John Creasy failed as a salesman, clerk, factory worker and aspiring writer. He received 754 rejections from publishers, but has written over 600 novels and is considered one of the greatest writers of the detective genre.

Hank Aaron failed to qualify for the Brooklyn Dodgers baseball club and lost his first league game 0-5. He later broke the Major League Baseball record for home runs and held it for 33 years.

Letting go of excuses means taking responsibility for every aspect of your life and creating a future you can be proud of.

So what, no one has done this before.

Become a pioneer.

So what if you failed a couple of times already.

Rethink your approach.

So what if you don't have a higher education.

Be curious. Learn.

So what if no one believes in you.

You don't need approval to be successful.

So what, it will be difficult.

Great success is achieved through pain and loss.

So what if you are trying, but so far you are not succeeding.

Being brave is always the right decision.

So what if people don't follow you.

They will follow as soon as you do something worthwhile.

So what if you get hurt.

Such is the price of courage.

So what if you are underestimated.

The ego will not let you rest on your laurels.

So what if everything you were taught turned out to be wrong.

Create new rules.

So what if the experts disagree with you.

Experts can be wrong.

So what if you give more than you get.

Maybe you'll just be happier.


So what? So what? So what?



Rest what if are just excuses. You need to look into your soul and fight the demons that prevent you from achieving success.

You won't be a winner until you stop paying attention to the fear and failure that's holding you back.

First, you need to believe that you can be great, no matter who you are at this stage in your life.

Carl Joseph (nicknamed Sugarleg) was born in Madison, Florida. He was the fourth of ten children in the care of a single mother. His poor family did not have money to visit health and sports facilities. This is probably why Carl worked hard to become an outstanding athlete.

Growing up, he played basketball and football on the street. He fought older guys, which taught him to be tough. More than once he was cruelly thrown to the ground, but he always jumped up and again joined the fight.

In the seventh grade, Carl made the basketball team. Standing under the basket, he jumped straight up and threw the ball into the basket. And that was just the beginning.

In high school, he played basketball, football and cross-country running, while setting records in almost every sport. At one of the competitions, he jumped 1.72 meters in height, after which he turned, threw the shot at 12.2 meters and threw the disc at 39.6 meters.

In one of the football matches with opponents much taller and stronger than him, Karl managed to block 11 times with a tackle, intercept 1 ball and block 1 shot.

In college, the young superstar didn't give up the sport. Carl played as a middle linebacker at University

Bethune-Cookman. Subsequently, five of his teammates moved to the US National Football League. The Wildcats won the conference championship thanks in large part to Carl's inspirational example.

The fact is that Karl was born without a left leg. All the competitions in which he participated were held in unequal conditions: everyone ran, turned and jumped on two legs, and Karl did all this, jumping on one.

No prostheses. No crutches. Only courage.

When a reporter asked Carl what his limits were, Carl replied, "None."


So, what was your next excuse?

It's important to drop excuses if you value your future. If you are creating a future for yourself for which you are working hard, then your efforts are very important, right? And you don't want to ruin everything. If you had a list of what should never be spoiled, your future would be number one on it.

Your decisions shape your destiny.

Don't believe? Believe me, it's true.

Sooner or later, your actions—and who you are—determine the outcome.

What does it mean? Here's a practical example for you. Let's calculate how much sleep you really need and how the decision to sleep less will affect your life. Just get up one hour earlier every day for fifty years and you'll get roughly 2,281 extra work days (or 6.25 years) to reach your goals.

The more you fight, the more you win.

Your daily decisions – or excuses – add up over time. It's easy to say that you need to work hard. Everyone knows this, right? But to say is not to do.

Your future depends on the decisions you make, not your ideas. Causal relationships are at work here, not chance. You really influence what you get.

We would all like to have that extra 6.25 years to reach our goals. But given a billion minute-by-minute opportunities to make a decision, whether to snuggle up in bed or get up and go win, most of us choose the former. At this moment, the decision seems insignificant - just think, some hour. But the results are fateful. In the literal sense of the word.

The decisions you make hundreds of times a day shape your future. They are all taken into account.

So how can you change your future today?

First, believe in your worth. The significance of your actions. The fact that your current actions change your opportunities in the future.

This is your way of thinking; and a bold way of thinking, if you will. This means that you:

keep a positive attitude when you are scared;

are fighting to the bitter end, even having received a blow in the stomach;

stay honest, even if it confuses you;

make time to develop new skills, talents and ideas, although it would be much easier to just “be yourself”;

make an effort to boost your morale without letting worry control your decisions.

To understand how important it is to get rid of excuses, you need to realize the results of your individual actions. Staying positive 20 times a day for 15 years is like having 109,500 opportunities to create a happier future.

Winning 1 more every year means getting the opportunity to boast thirty incredible, stunning successes throughout your life.

Tell the truth 1 more time each day - get 365 additional reasons to trust yourself.

Making five important contacts a month (not on Facebook or Twitter) for 35 years is getting to know 2,100 new people you can count on in times of need.

Published with permission from WALDSCHMIDT PARTNERS INTL.

Legal support for the publishing house is provided by Vegas Lex law firm.

© Daniel E. Waldschmidt, 2014

© Translation into Russian, edition in Russian, design. OOO "Mann, Ivanov and Ferber", 2015

At the beginning of the book, the opinions and reviews of readers who liked it are usually given. But, in fact, what do you care about other people's opinions?

Read the book and draw your own conclusions.

How it all started

I still remember the taste of cold oiled metal on my tongue.

At 25, I was about to die. I just wanted to get rid of the pain. That afternoon, I sat on the steps of the garage with the muzzle of a gun in my mouth, in a drunken stupor, with a feeling of bitter, murderous hopelessness.

I had everything you could wish for. But I ruined everything...

I always wanted to be extraordinary, amazing, eccentric. I wanted to change the world and, no doubt, I have already achieved a lot.

By the age of twenty-two, I was known in Washington business circles as the Wunderkind, head of a growing company that was expanding rapidly on both sides of the East Coast, doing business around the world. I had a wonderful wife, a wonderful son, and a house too big for the three of us. And for those who did not try to look behind the screen of luxurious costumes and carefree chatter, it seemed that everything was in order with me. However, inside I was full of guilt and disbelief in my own strength. I'm tired.

Despite my passion for extreme sports and my tendency to work my heart out—I often spent days at work—I lost the ability to bend the world to my will. My marriage has been shattered. Into a million little pieces. And I keenly felt how the fragments of this catastrophe had stuck into my being.

I did not pay attention to my wife, so another man appeared next to her. For a while I pretended that I did not notice anything and that I was indifferent to what was happening. But the feeling that someone has taken your place corrodes the soul. It drove me crazy. I blamed my wife. Cursed her. Tried to get out of my life. So what if I didn't have time for it?

But somewhere deep down, I clearly understood that my selfish behavior and inability to show love spoiled our beautiful relationship. I couldn't pretend anymore that this drama wasn't tearing my heart apart.

Not that I was the first time to lose something. I had failed many times before, but I generally viewed them as another stepping stone to success. And I always considered success something inevitable. It looks like it was.

Only this time, failure befell me in family life. And it seemed like nothing could be done.

I was going crazy because I couldn't change anything on my own. I have always managed to solve any problems and tasks ahead of others thanks to unbridled, purposeful, superhuman enthusiasm. But it was beyond my power to do anything in this situation. I couldn't get my wife to believe me. Or love me.

And it caused unimaginable pain.

Although from the outside, everything certainly looked different.

Yes, I did not want to lose my wife - but not for any reasonable reasons. I couldn't afford any loss. Never! Never! So I changed my behavior for a few months - just enough to show that I am an exemplary family man. I followed all the formalities: I began to spend more time with my wife, took her to expensive restaurants, arranged fabulous shopping tours. I expected that three months of exemplary behavior would win me back her love and respect. I even told her about it. But this only further alienated her.

So I hit what was best for me - the extreme. Worked longer. He swore louder. Trained harder. I spent every minute without sleep trying to calm the pain.

Day after day, I closed my office door behind me and sobbed over my desk. My assistant knocked politely, reminding me of meetings. I washed my face, straightened my tie, and went off to make incredible deals. But inside I was depressed and emotionally broken. This meant that more effort had to be put in. Which is what I did.

I pushed myself to the point of exhaustion, and even more. At some point in a couple of days, I even lost nine kilograms; and during merciless training in the gym, he caught a staph infection. And at first the doctors could not find it.

I spent four days in the intensive care unit of the hospital. They took infectious disease specialists to me, they did a blood test for AIDS and other autoimmune diseases. Everything was clean. Doctors could not understand what was the matter, and saw one way out - to try different antibiotics. If one did not help, they appointed another. Then another. And so again and again. In the end, I went on the mend.

But my body was broken. I was weak and out of shape. Everything I worked so hard for is gone. And this caused me even more suffering.

I have always believed that I can overcome any difficulties, and I have always put in enough effort to overcome them. But now, for the first time in my life, I was physically unable to do so. Not only did I let my family down, I let myself down. The only friend I had (myself) left me. And I couldn't shake the feeling of loneliness. I was consumed by my failure. Terrible thoughts swirled in my head.

This time I was defeated. It's time to exit the game.

If the staph infection didn't kill me, now I wanted to do it myself. That's how I ended up in the middle of the garage, drunk as hell, with a glass of whiskey in one hand and a gun in the other.

Tears rolled down his face. My sadness turned into sobs. It was so deep and caused so much pain that I was ready to die. There was no other way out. I longed for death. Wiping away my tears, I grabbed the box of bullets. As if in a fog (after all, I'll have to do the job myself), I diligently shoved bullet after bullet into my .22 Browning until I had a full clip.

I took another sip of whiskey and staggered to the back porch of the garage. Sitting down, I awkwardly, with a crash, knocked the glass on the step. But he survived. For a few seconds this observation distracted my attention from my sad thoughts. But they immediately rolled again.

I picked up the gun and held it up to my head. I was curious, which would be better - put the gun to the temple or to the mouth? Can I at least not screw up in this? I decided that a shot in the mouth would be safer.

I was completely serious when I tasted gun oil on my tongue. Partly I was wondering if I would dare to do it, and partly I wanted to get it over with as soon as possible. I'm tired of suffering.

The pain will go away soon. I nodded, as if confirming to myself that I was doing everything right.

He put his finger on the trigger and began to press ...

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